how can u tell..

22 November 2005 (LateLate nite)

i wonder..deep in my heart...i question every glimps of situation...every sip of frustration...they say i will know...they say he will come....after the lust n mere slumber...things will come clear....he will come near....

i ponder....deep in my thoughts....maybe just some wasted thoughts...or maybe i am none of sorts...i wonder deep in this smokedFull thoughts....tho i wonder what ive ever thought....
im never near wht i have been taught....



i stand still in this room...
i stand still.

can u tell?

dreaming of u

20th November 2005.

im tired tonite. im weak tonite ..but all i could think of...is to dream tonite...
im hopeful tonite. im wishful tonite.. but all i could thin...is of u tonite....

im loneLy tonite.im restLess tonite.but all i could think of..is to kiss u tight
im helpLess tonite.im hopeLess alright. but all i could think of. is to dream of u....
of u.

cheers.

selintas di pikiranKu

18November 2005

aku terkhayal sebentar...dalam kesesakan kertas dan kepantasan masa...terlintas sebentar lalu terlekat menyapa....apakah itu cantek...apakah itu indah...apakah yang dikata seindah kata, seindah rupa....

aku terhenti sebentar...dalam keheningan petang dan kesilauan semalam...pernah cantek dikatakan padaku...tetapi bukan maksud pada waktu itu...pernah anggun juga dikata...tetapi pabila ku berubah jua....

aku berkhayal seketika....dan beranggap mungkin jua...cantek itu tiada pada yang berisi....atau pada yang sentiasa susah hati....cantek itu tiada di hati ini...cuma rupa aja yang dihakimi...mungkinkah aku begitu jua....mencari peneman berasaskan rupa?

aku terpikir sebentar...dalam kelemahan semangat dan kesayuan hati....perlukah aku berubah..perlukah aku kalah..pada pandangan dan pemahaman...tentang arti cantek dan keindahan diri...yang tiada pada yang berisi?

lantas aku terus bepikir lagi...terusan berpusing lagi....ingin mencari jawaban pasti...tapi aku pikir hanya minit ini....malas untuk aku berpikir lagi......

hanya selintas di fikiranku...
hanya selintas...

cheers!..

bitterSweet symphony*

14th November 2005

give me sugar... and iLL be sweeter... but watch me closer..
for i am bitter...

give me bitter.....n nothing gets better....but watch me closer...n iLL make life sweeter...

give me an answer...a lie or maybe another....say im weaker....say ure better...

give me a name.... or something to blame....but dont b ashamed....when u know...i'm just the same...

give me leather...a notion or a letter...tell me what matters...n iLL whisper u "sweetForever"...

give me a treat...beads or maybe some Keats...tell me im neat.....and iLL give u bitterSweet.

cheers!

*...cause its a bitterSweet symphony...that's Life.....lalalalala*